Day 9,491

I've realized there haven't been many days in my 9,490 day life that I have been myself. SO many days of doing, acting, saying things in a way that I expected would please others. Even major life decisions that have been decided over the length of many days have been decided on by what I felt obligated to do.

And it's left me to ponder.. who would I be, where would I be if I did just as I wanted? What could I create in this would if I listen to the deep desires of my adventurous, imaginative soul? Ahhh the day dreams I have had about a life created with my own thoughts, my own values and aspirations.

Somewhere along the line of 9,490 days I let the constraints of others beliefs blind me to my own capacity. I'm fearful of following my own little heart because there is so much unknown, so much uncertainty of forging your own path. But what could happen if I let my imagination and determination run wild? Oh the satisfaction it would bring. The beautiful things I could create. The impact I could have if only I believed in myself.

At this point, I've come to the realization that I in fact have TOO much to risk in not following my own heart. So why not go for it?

So here I go, on this 9,491st day. One day at a time I will relearn what it means to follow my own path. I hope during this journey I can share with you my struggles, my triumphs, and my reflections.

What would you create if nothing was in your way, if there were no constraints, what beauty would you bring into this world?